The mood here in Tiburon is still somber due to the suicide of our neighbor, Robin Williams.
I’ve been contemplating whether or not to publish this post because it’s such a dark, taboo subject, but with his passing, I realized that’s exactly why I should.
If you’re reading this, and having suicidal thoughts, I want you to know it’s not your fault you feel the way you do.
You haven’t done anything wrong. You are not “broken”, nor are you a “bad” person. Clear your mind right now of any labels, because labels in and of themselves are self-limiting.
Suicide is not something you chose; it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain.
Trust me, I get it. I’ve been there.
You’ve probably tried everything under the sun to fix things and I know you feel like there are no other options available to you, but trust me, there are many.
You just don’t see them yet.
So, today I want to share with you five things to consider that really helped me figure this out for myself.
- Get some distance. If you need to stay in bed all day, do it. If taking a walk in nature to clear your head (highly recommended) is an option, do it. If eating makes you feel better, do it. Watching funny movies always makes me feel better. Besides, how can you not laugh your ass off at Mike Myers’ impersonation of Marilyn Monroe’s Happy Birthday Mr. President in Wayne’s World. You can watch it here. You’re at least smiling now, right?
- Talk to someone. If the thought of reaching out to family and friends is too scary, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-8255. Do it now.
- Know there is new research available to you. Thanks to the brilliant work into advanced nutrient therapy by Dr. William Walsh, we now know the root cause of depression. There are five different biotypes of depression and three of them have nothing to do with low serotonin levels. If you’ve recently begun taking an anti-depressant and are overmethylated, they can make you feel worse and cause suicidal ideation. You can read more about that here. Despite a Parkinson’s diagnosis, this may have been the case with Robin Williams. Sadly, we’ll never know.
- Take one day at a time. Rather than focusing on the past or future, I want you to say this to yourself right now “Even though I feel ________, I deeply love myself and know this too shall pass.” I know it feels real, but trust me, right now, in this moment, your feelings are not real. Rinse and repeat as many times as necessary. Say it all day long if you have to.
- Love on yourself. I’ve lost track of the number of Eat, Pray, Love moments in which I was biting the bathroom floor, a flood of tears, with a face so swollen you couldn’t tell the difference between me and a Real Housewives of Whatever facelift, but that didn’t stop me from telling all of my body parts that I love them. I still do this when I wake up in the morning. I start at the top of my head and go down through my body to my toes. Thank your legs for getting you to and fro. Thank your arms for helping you drive your car and prepare food. Thank your brain for helping you develop into the person you are today. Do this simple, yet powerful act of gratitude now, even if you don’t feel like it. It will change your life.
Lastly, keep in mind that depression is a term, not a condition (thank you Dr. Mensah). You are not flawed. There is nothing wrong with you.
You are important and your life has meaning. Never. Give. Up.
Keep in mind that advanced nutrient therapy is cutting edge, so your doctor may not be aware of it yet. Let them know that simple, inexpensive blood tests to determine methylation status, along with nutrient excesses and deficiencies prior to diagnosis, are a critical step in the healing process. The Walsh Research Institute trains doctors in this protocol. Share this link with your doctor.
These blood tests will save your life.
They did mine.
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